Truth and #confessiontime...

Soooo now that I have different forms of social media, ill explain what I'll be using each for!

Blog: itsvmfitness.blogspot.com
I’ll be using my blog to update with longer posts and updates! More informational updates or fitness and health related things!


YouTube: YouTube.com/user/thevmfitness
I'll be using my YouTube for random vlogs about my bikini competition journey, and other things like q&a’s, workouts, reviews, cooking, etc!


Tumblr: vmfitness.tumblr.com
Ill use this tumblr to post everything I post on my INSTAGRAM (instagram.com/vmfitness) for those of you who donlt have Instagram! PLUS other daily things, more quotes, maybe random updates on foods I eat, workouts, etc! More of a daily blog than my blogspot blog!!


Twitter: twitter.com/vmfitness
This will be where all my random rantings and thoughts will be :P

Thanks for following my lifestyle journey fitfam! I love you ALL! <3

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If you follow me on my instagram, then you probably saw this post:

"Confession time: been pretty slacking this past week with foods and workouts... I've kinda lost my own motivation! Sorry to let you all down but I'm not always on point either! School was stressful with tests and reviews so I missed workouts (no excuse I know), this ebook is making me taste all these clean treats (still no excuse), and I've just been slackingggg. I've been giving myself excuses and reasons for slacking and thinking its ok.. Like "I have 14 more weeks left" or "eh it won't affect me thatttt much" etc etc. but in all honesty, I gotta take my own advice!! Stop getting in the habit of puttin things off, stop thinking that these little things WILL add up over time... A #randomthoughts of Josie this morning! I even thought of backing out of my bikini competition because of certain things (LENGTHY: but ill put the reasons why in a blog post this week!) however I'm still going to do it and go for it! Just needed to post this pic today, I CAN DO IT! YOU can do it!! You have to BELIEVE in your power to change and get motivated and go out there and kick some serious fat in the a$$! Even when you have days/weeks/times of low motivation, and slacking in the lifestyle, you have to pick yourself up, KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS, WANT to do it, and then simple, DO IT!  again, you don't fail until you completely give up. DONT DO IT. Also, the dessert volume of my ebook may have to be finished early.. There aren't as many recipes as I had hoped butttt if I keep making any more tasty desserts and eating them(been baking like 2-3 a day!) ill blow up like a whale! "

So yeah, basically the past week following my spring break [which ALSO was a bad week with workouts and eating] didn't go so well... that makes 2 weeks in a row of not doing so well... but you know what? IT'S OK! It already happened... it's in the past. Nothing I can do about it now! My excuses were weak too... just busy with school, and trying to get this ebook out to you all, made me bake a LOT, and therefor eat and taste a lot haha [guiltyyyy]. 

Time to MOVE ON. I'm holding tons of water weight and I do feel puffy! But nothing that getting back to routine can't fix right?! 

Oh yeah, I mentioned that I was thinking about backing out of my bikini competition journey... 

Ahhh sighhh I had soooo many reasons for doing this competition and prep, lots and lots of reasons, but the main one that I'll share with you here is because I really wanted to get control of my eating habits, aka 

BINGING.

I thought 

"Hey, if I can get through this prep and hard tough journey, then YEAH I can do anything! I can refuse junk food, stop at 1 cookie, not eat the whole box of [insert delicious naughty food of choice]"

Unfortunately though, it seems that this hasn't happened... I'm still struggling with binging... During spring break I found myself going back to old ways, eating everything I could get my hands on.. and now back at school, I'm still having hard times with control. So I thought,

"Is this comp really helping me achieve that goal I set for myself? Or is it just making me crave MORE because I'm restricting and is it completely making me do what I'm trying NOT to do?"

And while it is true, that it is NOT helping as of now.... I think I'm still going to go through with it... Ah I don't know... it's such a mental struggle... I honestly don't know what to do... That's right guys

I ADMIT I AM WEAK

I AM HUMAN

I am torn now.... 1 of any of these things could happen:

1. Continue this journey hoping that I can find this control that I crave and yearn for, hoping that I'll reach my goal...
2. Continue this journey and find myself binging again..
3. Decide not to compete and just enjoy the healthy lifestyle...

I'm also TERRIFIED of post competition, when it's all over and I get to eat normal healthy lifestyle again... so many horror stories of ladies just BINGING until they're swollen and gain back alll the lost weight again.... and I feel like that will most definitely happen to me...

I know so many of you support me on this ride to my first bikini competition, and I don't want to let any of YOU down.. but I do have to decide what's best for ME. Well it's all in the air right now.. not sure what I'll do.... Will be thinking it over the next few days/weeks etc....

But as of now, I AM STARTING FRESH. Back on the clean eating train after the past few weeks of slacking. I'm just going to continue healthy eating, working out, and see what I decide and where I'm at with the bikini competition journey...


To be continued....


Josie

My First BIKINI COMPETITION and @MrGeecue

That's right! IT'S OFFICIAL!
I announced on my Instagram the other day when my competition will be!

I posted it mainly as motivation for myself, so that I CAN NOT back out! I was planning on doing an earlier show, but I felt I would NOT be ready in time. Instead of stressing out about it and killing myself over the anxiety and cardio and stress, I decided to do a longer, more comfortable prep for the

JUNE 22

NPC Maryland State & East Coast Classic

It'll be in Rockville, MD and if any of you want to come out and support, that is MIGHTYYY FINEEE BY ME! <3

Social Media GALORE, Week 3 Update, and Supps

HELLO HELLOOOOO

Small update for you all!

Don't know if you noticed the new side bar of all my different social media, but YEAH! Check it out!
Now I have a:
BLOG, Instagram, Youtube account, Twitter, Tumblr, and Pinterest!
CRAZYYYY

Hmmm now all that's left is a facebook..... hehe just kidding I think the social media world may get sick of me soon enough!

Check out my new YOUTUBE VIDEO HERE about my updated supplements! This time I actually tell you why they're beneficial, so I hope it helps!! <3

And now for a little update:

Not yet where I want to be, but working hard every day to get there. 

Taking some progress pics for the coach @mrgeecue from Instagram this morning! Came across this quote and I love it. It all comes down to YOU and what YOU do behind the scenes when no ones watching. Will you grab that cookie? That cupcake or donut? Or will you say "NO, be proud of yourself, wake up tomorrow feeling ACCOMPLISHED, HAPPY, and STRONG that you resisted". Ill choose the latter please!! I could have easily eaten greasy fried tortilla chips at work yesterday, especially because I was in a bad mood about certain tables, but I told myself NO, what you do in private, will show on that stage. Do you want to regret all the things you could have NOT DONE while you're up on that stage in that Itty bitty bikini? NO! This applies to all of you too!!! Spring and summer is around the corner, full of beaches and half naked frolicking!! Do you want to regret all those things you did that cheated yourself of your goal? NO!! Not saying be strict and 100% pound town all the time, but don't set yourself back farther from your goals! KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, know WHAT YOU GOTTA DO TO GET IT, then, DO IT!! You got this #fitfam !!!

Gotta take some measurements now and all that jazz to see how much I've progressed [or if I haven't :O] over the last few weeks! Eek fingers crossed...

Once I get closer to my competition, I WILLLL share when and where it is, just in case you want to come out and support me! I would love to meet my wonderful supportive fit fam!!
I have a new plan now, more strict diet plan, and yesterday was the first day I adhered to it 100%!! SOOOOOO if every day for the next ____ weeks goes like yesterday, I should be seeing some AMAZING changes! AHHH wish me luck!

Bikini Journey Update & Ravish Sands

Hey Everyone!

Sorry for being so MIA on the blog lately!
I know I said I'd be doing updates on my bikini competition journey, but it looks like I'll just be doing more updates vlog style on my YOUTUBE account! So head over there to see the random videos I'll post regarding bikini prep!

I had a rough 2nd week of prep, meals prepped weren't tasty or fun, therefor that lead me to cheat a lot on my diet, a lotttttt. But I'm determined to make this 3rd Week PERFECT. No messing up!

STICKING TO THE PLAN, NO SELF SABOTAGE!

Ah this bikini journey is going to be a LOT tougher than I thought. I mean I knew it was going to be hard, thought I was prepared... Turns out haha I'M NOT! But you can never really prepare 100% mentally through these things! You just have to take it one day at a time!

Things I'm doing this week for a smoother 3rd week of comp prep:

• don't buy anymore bread or peanut butter
• prep tastier and more fun meals
• prepare alllll foods
• go to bed around 10-11, no staying up late = no late night munchies!
• just say NO to the temptations
• if the roomies have bad food, ignore it, remove yourself from the situation!
• keep yourself BUSY - study, clean, do something to keep mind off temptations!
• no more baking clean eating goodies - I'll eat the whole tray!

Ah that's all I can think of for now in how to stop self sabotaging my progress for this upcoming competition!

 

Another update!

I am now sponsored by the lovely RAVISHANDS SWIM WEAR Company! She makes the most BEAUTIFUL custom suits I've ever seen! Not just bikini competition suits either, also regular beach wear suits! Ahh to DIE FOR! They'll be making my suit for my competition EEKKKKK. It's going to look absolutely beautiful!

Check out her website if you're looking for your own competition suit or just a cute sexy suit to wear to the beach this spring/summer!

So fingers crossed my beautiful #fitfam that I stay strong, tough, and motivated this 3rd week!

My coach, Nate, or @mrgeecue on Instagram, or NapaFitPro on youtube, put it wonderfully:

"Imagine yourself in front of temptation.... I want you to feel empowered by the fact that you can resist."

That was just a perfect way of putting it, something I never realized, a new perspective and way of seeing things. I Loved it! AH and now I BELIEVE and hope that I can make it through these next few months!

Wish me luck!

Bikini Competition

IT'S DECIDED.

I'm going to compete this summer.

Not yet decided which show exactly, BUTTT they will be in the Bethesda or Rockville, MD area!

If any of you are in that area, I would LOVE to have your support and meet some of my wonderful fitfam that I only get to encounter over instagram! It could be like a happy instagram family reunion :P

I've already started a new program and meal plan with my coach, Nate, @mrgeecue on Instagram.

Above is my current photo I posted last week on Instagram! 

Can't wait to see what changes happen to my body.

I'm excited to push myself, challenge myself, learn more about my body, and grow on the inside and outside.

A lot of you may be asking,

WHY.

 Why go through the stress, the ups and downs, the emotional breakdowns, the strict diet, the tough training, just to be judged on stage about 3/4 naked, on physical appearances on what others deem as beautiful or perfect in an activity that seems shallow and vain?

Well ladies and gents, it's not because I EXPECT TO WIN OR PLACE.

No no not at ALL.

I'm going in not expecting anything of that sort.

You wanna know why I want to do this?

I want to do it

FOR ME.  

To be able to conquer one of the things on my bucket list, to push myself to the limits. 

I want to push my body to places it's never been before, push my mind and willpower to the outmost limits. To take my low confidence, and build it up high enough to throw aside my stage fright, and strut my stuff out there for the world! Half naked.... :O

I want to be able to walk onto that stage, and LOOK like I belong on that stage.

I'm proud to say I've gotten a good control on my binge eating and haven't had a large episode in a while, and with that accomplishment, it's time to set another.

This is a dream of mine. 

This is a GOAL of mine.

I want to see where my body can go. I want to go to the next level with connecting my mind to my body, with saying NO to foods that aren't healthy to me, and this competition is exactly what I need to push me to do it. 

A goal without a deadline is just a dream

So this is my deadline.

I have the possible dates, but I won't share exactlyyy in case unexpected things come up...

When the date does come and go, I'll be able to say:

I have the power to say no to foods that aren't good for my body.

I have pushed myself to the limits, mentally and physically.

I am confident in my body and I am beautiful inside and out.

I am no longer afraid of the unknown. 

I am stronger than I ever was before.

I can commit & stick to a plan.

I worked my hardest, brought my best, and I made it.

That is why I am doing this. To be able to say all those things up there.    

And just by stepping onto that stage... In my eyes, I've already won. Going through this whole process, this journey of the Bikini Competition Prep, that will be my biggest accomplishment yet. Going through all the highs, the lows, the good and the bad days, all for one, satisfying moment, all of that for just one day.

Yeah, I think that moment will be the highlight of my life.

And I think these next few months will be worth it.

To be able to say all the things I've listed up there, to feel more confident and radiant inside and out, to be able to say "Yes, I was compared to some of the fittest girls out there on stage, and looked like I belonged up there too...."

To me, I think it'll all be worth it....

Stay tuned, I'll hopefully post a lot on my journey to the stage for all of you fitfam to follow along, and who knows, inspire some of YOU to reach for your biggest dreams and goals!
I'll even try to set up that Youtube account of mine and upload videos of my journey! I think it'd be so great for you all to kind of experience it with me!

  

It's going to be a very #vmfityear indeed :P