So I posted this a few days ago on Instagram, [remember if you want up to date posts, follow me on Instagram, twitter, or tumblr!] about how exactly I stopped my binging, and how I'm feeling now!
I'm so happy. I never thought I'd
get to this point. If you followed me for a while, you KNOW how many
setbacks and failures I had! (Never hid anything bout that, I was the
setback QUEEN!) I thought I'd spend the rest of my life binging. Buying
a pack of rice cakes, cottage cheese, peanut butter, and polishing it
all off in 1 night. I thought I would never stop feeling disgusted about
myself, only to continue binging from the days start to days end. I
thought that I'd never be able to stop going to buffets and devouring
all the food in sight, getting plates on plates, past the point of being
stuffed. I never thought I'd be able to be NORMAL, eat normally, not
always have food on my mind, thinking of what I could devour next. I was
so angry
at myself for letting it get so far, only to continue with the binges
thinking "eh what's the point? I already messed up anyway!" NO.
I'm SOOO happy now, I've found a new mindset, I have a new relationship with food. Food doesn't control me. I no longer even have the URGE
to binge! And haven't in SO LONG! It's an amazing amazing amazing
feeling. I'm still eating majority healthy, but not freaking out about
treats! A lot of you asked me how I got through. And here's EXACTLY what I did. Not saying it may work for you, but just sharing.
