Bikini Competition

IT'S DECIDED.

I'm going to compete this summer.

Not yet decided which show exactly, BUTTT they will be in the Bethesda or Rockville, MD area!

If any of you are in that area, I would LOVE to have your support and meet some of my wonderful fitfam that I only get to encounter over instagram! It could be like a happy instagram family reunion :P

I've already started a new program and meal plan with my coach, Nate, @mrgeecue on Instagram.

Above is my current photo I posted last week on Instagram! 

Can't wait to see what changes happen to my body.

I'm excited to push myself, challenge myself, learn more about my body, and grow on the inside and outside.

A lot of you may be asking,

WHY.

 Why go through the stress, the ups and downs, the emotional breakdowns, the strict diet, the tough training, just to be judged on stage about 3/4 naked, on physical appearances on what others deem as beautiful or perfect in an activity that seems shallow and vain?

Well ladies and gents, it's not because I EXPECT TO WIN OR PLACE.

No no not at ALL.

I'm going in not expecting anything of that sort.

You wanna know why I want to do this?

I want to do it

FOR ME.  

To be able to conquer one of the things on my bucket list, to push myself to the limits. 

I want to push my body to places it's never been before, push my mind and willpower to the outmost limits. To take my low confidence, and build it up high enough to throw aside my stage fright, and strut my stuff out there for the world! Half naked.... :O

I want to be able to walk onto that stage, and LOOK like I belong on that stage.

I'm proud to say I've gotten a good control on my binge eating and haven't had a large episode in a while, and with that accomplishment, it's time to set another.

This is a dream of mine. 

This is a GOAL of mine.

I want to see where my body can go. I want to go to the next level with connecting my mind to my body, with saying NO to foods that aren't healthy to me, and this competition is exactly what I need to push me to do it. 

A goal without a deadline is just a dream

So this is my deadline.

I have the possible dates, but I won't share exactlyyy in case unexpected things come up...

When the date does come and go, I'll be able to say:

I have the power to say no to foods that aren't good for my body.

I have pushed myself to the limits, mentally and physically.

I am confident in my body and I am beautiful inside and out.

I am no longer afraid of the unknown. 

I am stronger than I ever was before.

I can commit & stick to a plan.

I worked my hardest, brought my best, and I made it.

That is why I am doing this. To be able to say all those things up there.    

And just by stepping onto that stage... In my eyes, I've already won. Going through this whole process, this journey of the Bikini Competition Prep, that will be my biggest accomplishment yet. Going through all the highs, the lows, the good and the bad days, all for one, satisfying moment, all of that for just one day.

Yeah, I think that moment will be the highlight of my life.

And I think these next few months will be worth it.

To be able to say all the things I've listed up there, to feel more confident and radiant inside and out, to be able to say "Yes, I was compared to some of the fittest girls out there on stage, and looked like I belonged up there too...."

To me, I think it'll all be worth it....

Stay tuned, I'll hopefully post a lot on my journey to the stage for all of you fitfam to follow along, and who knows, inspire some of YOU to reach for your biggest dreams and goals!
I'll even try to set up that Youtube account of mine and upload videos of my journey! I think it'd be so great for you all to kind of experience it with me!

  

It's going to be a very #vmfityear indeed :P